Life after the bottle
Like most alcoholics in mid disease, I couldn’t imagine life without drinking. Everything I did involved drinking. Got together with friends, I drank, went to the clubs, I drank, chillin out at home, I drank, celebrating, I drank…..you get it right? Okay good. Now that I’m sober, I can’t imagine my life with a bottle of booze in it. Yes, I work in venues all over the country, they ALL serve alcohol and it doesn’t phase me in the least. I have no urge or desire to entertain that part of my life ever again. I remember all to well where that got me. I don’t kick myself in the ass for it anymore either. In fact, I have gotten to the point where I laugh about some of the extremes my insanity took me back then.
Now some people saw these pics and thought them to be discomforting…that’s the exact word he used. My comment to him was as followed: Making fun of myself and truly laughing at some of the places my insanity took me back then is part of my sanity today. “We don’t regret the past, nor do we wish to close the door on it.” I’m sorry You are discomforted by it, but I see it and it reminds me of just how insane I was and where I don’t want to be again.
One of the BIGGEST misconceptions an alcoholic believes is that life will become BORING if they give it up. WRONG!!!! Please take a look at the picture below…..Does it look like my life has become boring?????
There IS life after the bottle. In fact, even with the bad times, there’s a BETTER life after the bottle. One that you can function in, one that you appreciate, one that you’re happy in and one you can be proud of. I can honestly say that I have gone further and accomplished more in the past four years than I have my whole life since the age of 13. That’s NOT an exaggeration, I promise you. I’m not only talking about the titles, the crowns and stuff, those were just amazing additions. I’m talking about finally feeling comfortable in my own skin, Finally being able to look in the mirror, and finally having the passion and desire to live. I was lost, I had no real drive to do much of anything but drink. There’s a gleam in my eyes today that I honestly don’t ever remember being there, even before I started drinking or getting high.
There’s no such thing as a “perfect” life, not for anyone. However comma….even with the stressful, disturbing and painful times in my sobriety, I wouldn’t trade it in for any amount of money in the world. What’s life like after the bottle? MANAGABLE and WORTH LIVING. The wife and I take little day trips when we can and have a blast, I still go out with my friends and act the fool so to speak, I’m grateful for the little things that most people take for granted. I wake up in the morning and am no longer struck with the overwhelming feeling of doom and uselessness. I laugh a hell of a lot more than I cry or feel down. I enjoy life today for all that it’s worth and more. Now you might be thinking that I’m pulling your leg, and that is your right, but I’m not. Talk to anyone who knew me back when I was drinking and ask them to compare my life back then to the way it is today. Hear it from them, they’ll tell you the same just about. I don’t wear a halo, I’m far from perfect, my life is far from perfect BUT it’s a life worth living today. If you still think that there isn’t any kind of enjoyable life after the bottle, again, that is completely up to you. I’ll leave you with one final thought…..If you can’t enjoy yourself without having to hit the bottle, ask yourself “why”
October 16, 2014
AJ Menendez, Master Male Illusionist