Celebrity Status means nothing…nadda….zilch when it comes to addiction.
Please bare with me for a moment, I promise you there is a point to be made. Like millions and millions of other people, I actually idolized Robbin Williams. Not only because he was funny as hell, but because he was larger than life and had no problems discussing his problems with Drugs and Alcohol. Robin seemed so full of life and was the LAST person I would ever expect to commit suicide. Even people in the lime light, people that we idolize go through regular “life” things. I know I’ve touched base on this before, but given the circumstances, I feel I need to touch base on it once again. So again, I ask you to please bare with me.
People meet me or other entertainers like my co-host on the Pit Stop Radio show Mister Vinnie Marconi and they can’t see us going through the garbage our addictions have made us crawl through. We hear things like “I can’t believe you were like that, or I can’t see you going down that road.” We are and have been in recovery, but that doesn’t mean we don’t go through the same things regular people go through. Depression, anxiety, additions……We could fall again just as easily as anyone else. I don’t normally suffer from depression, but I can tell you that when you suffer from an addiction, it can lead to depression. This is some real and dangerous sh**. There’s no other way to put it. There ARE millions and millions of us who beat it, but we never fully recover, we will NEVER be cured. Being in the lime light does not make us exempt in any way, shape or form. Addiction knows no boundaries, nor is it prejudiced! Addiction is something that grabs a hold of you and NEVER completely lets go. Is it treatable? YES, most definitely….is it curable??? NO, not at all. It’s something we must work on every single day of our lives and some days are more of a struggle than others. It all comes down to how badly you want it. You can NEVER have that “I got this” attitude, that’s one of the most dangerous attitude for an alcoholic (or addict) to have.
Yes, my life is better, much better in fact. Yes I am (from time to time) in the lime light (as a direct result of my sobriety) but that doesn’t mean I’m cured or better in any way. I have my down days just like any other drunk. I have my days where I think about a drink more often than I should. Every so often, I even still have drunk dreams and wake up with the taste of whiskey in my mouth. I’m no different or better than any other alcoholic out there. We’re all human after all. I genuinely hope that my so called celebrity status will show people just that…..We are not any different than anyone else and that there IS a way out IF you want it. There’s nothing special about me or any other entertainer who suffers, we are all on the same level, especially when it comes to addiction. I don’t care how high up the food chain someone may be, that doesn’t make them exempt when it comes to addiction or recovery. It’s NOT something we can handle alone. If you’re just not drinking, than you’re a dry drunk, you’re NOT sober. With true sobriety comes pure serenity. You can’t get that without help.
There is NOTHING one can’t overcome IF you’re willing to put in the work and IF you’re willing to do what must be done. Half measures avail us nothing….It’s all or nothing. If you’re reading this and you even suspect that you may have a problem, you don’t necessarily have to hit me up (but you are free to do so, I surely will not judge you) but I am hoping that you will seriously consider looking into some kind of options.
August 13, 2014
AJ Menendez, Master Male Illusionist.