When you hear the word “Alcoholic” what comes to mind? Do you think of someone who is sitting on a street corner begging for money? Someone who is known as the town drunk? Sleeping in their cars? Lost their family? Maybe someone who drinks every day of he week? Gets the shakes in the morning or whenever they don’t have it? That’s exactly the way I saw it. I often told myself that I couldn’t have been an alcoholic because I wasn’t like that. I still had my wife, my home, my job and I didn’t drink everyday. Those few little facts made it so much easier for me to ignore my disease. I am what’s known as a “binge” drinker. I didn’t realize that even though I didn’t drink every day, once I had that first drink, I couldn’t stop even if I wanted to. I didn’t realize I was in the process of losing everyone and everything I had. I didn’t realize how out of control I was.
There are people who have the corner office in a huge building and wears suits to work and keep a fifth of vodka in their bottom draw of their desk to pour into their early morning coffee.There are mothers who are completely able to function. They keep the house up, keep their kids healthy and the husband happy, but in the laundry room behind the detergent and under the sink behind the cleaning products she had two bottles of Bourbon stashed that she’d sneak off and hit every chance she could. There are loud, obnoxious drunks who make asses out of themselves when they are drunk. Then you have the closet drunks. Some would seem normal to the outside world, but deep down they were still alcoholics.
There are many different kinds of alcoholics, not just one stereotype. Some of us make it quite obvious and others are able to hide it until they can’t hide it anymore. The bottom line is an alcoholic is still an alcoholic. With some of us, the disease hits us faster and harder, with others, the process is much slower. In the end, the outcome is always the same. We become hopeless alcoholics and unless we are willing to save our own lives, we die.
July 2, 2014
AJ Menendez, Master Male Illusionist.