Keepin’ it real….
I teach classes at a local Rehabilitation center on the dangers of anger and resentment in recovery. One of the main reasons my students like me, is because I’m blunt. I don’t beat around the bush. I keep it real. That’s what this blog is about. If you’re reading this and you think you may have a problem,
pay attention because school is open….
Hangovers, sour stomach, memory loss, waking up and not knowing where you are……those are just a few of the consequences that come with a night with the bottle…..When people confront you about your drinking, do you get defensive and tell them that you have it under control? Maybe you tell them that it’s none of their business and that you can quit any time you wanted to. The fact that you’re being confronted should tell you that you’re already out of control. Those who love you usually don’t begin to confront you until they are desperate and can no longer stand by and watch you kill yourself slowly.
Confrontation usually happens right before they walk away from you.
You may start to notice that your friends don’t want to hang out with you as often as they used to. They always have something else to do. They either aren’t sure how to tell you that you’re an ass when you drink, or they don’t want to hurt your feelings. They don’t want to come right out and tell you that you are down right embarrassing or maybe you start fights when you’ve had too much. Nobody wants to hang out with a drunkin’ fool. Then you have those who have no problem getting behind the wheel when they are drunk. They think it’s okay. That’s called bad judgment but you don’t realize that because you’re trashed. Do you wake up in the morning feeling like death warmed over and you have absolutely no memory of the night before??? Black Outs are a huge indication that there’s a problem and it’s out of control. I used to brag about how I could drink a gallon of Vodka all by myself…at no point in time did I realize that drinking a gallon of Vodka ( or whatever else I had) as a sure sign that I was out of control and in a danger zone.
I hear a lot of people say “My life will be boring if I can’t drink” Tell me, where is the fun of stumbling all over the place in a bar or a club? What’s fun about throwing up with your head spinning out of control or not remembering anything??? The most important question is can’t you have a good time without getting trashed and if not, WHY?????” Do you drink when you’re happy? Angry? Upset? When you feel those feelings, is the bottle the first thing you grab? Do you make up excuses to drink? That was my favorite thing to do. I’d start a fight just to have an excuse to get drunk. Of course I had to make up reasons to do it because if I drank without an excuse, I had to admit I was out of control. The bottle had control of “me” I never had control of the bottle. I may seem like a “nice” person now, but I truly wasn’t back then. The bottle determined my every mood, my every emotion, my every act. Of course, I didn’t see it that way at the time.
If at any time you’re sitting around alone and think that you might have a problem, listen to your gut and get help NOW. There’s nothing to be ashamed about, there are millions and millions of alcoholics out there who have been there and done that. If you’re not sure you have a problem, don’t be afraid to
TALK TO SOMEONE. There are people who will understand.
May 26, 2014